Here in Georgia the weather has gone from sunny and warm to cold, damp and dark. From day to day I am not sure what it will be like outside. I don't know about you, but this is not my favorite weather. During weather like this I am prone to lite despondency that effects not only myself but those around me. I don't know what it is. Could it be an increase of melatonin do to the lack of light and the increase of darkness? If so, it is amazing what a pea sized gland in the middle of the brain can do. Maybe it has more to do with the stress we collected as we moved out of our church's missionary house knowing that we will soon move again to Thailand. Moving is not fun, although it is necessary. It could possibly be due to overlooking the tending of my soul by spending time with the Creator of weather, pineal glands, and the One who directs our paths.
The sun came out today and the weather is awesome, Sherry said the sun has been out all week, but I didn't really see it...hmmm...not good...haha. Some of our friends have invited Sophie over to see their horse Phantom. She likes to watch her friend tend to Phantom and help brush the horses neck. Sophie is sleeping in the chair with me now and will be excited to hear that we are going outside to play with Phantom. Light and circumstances both effect me.
But I don't want to be dependant on them to be in a chipper mood. I want to reemphasize that it is just lite despondency, my heart really goes out to others who are despondent in the most accurate use of the word. For those, I know that the use of medication is good and right to get the mind and body tuned up, and I am glad that it is available to help them as they also fight for faith, peace and freedom.
But for now, my main enemies are unbelief and apathetic living. I know myself enough to know that if I get lazy in the time I spend with God in His Word and neglect learning more about Him through great books, I will begin to lose perspective and set my eyes on circumstances. So just like my mind being loosened up some just with the sun coming out, I want my heart to rest and find freedom in the Son who is the light of the world.
I debated on making this post public, but went on and did so hoping to encourage others who may be like me. I am thankful for those who walk in faith more consistently than I do and who chemically manage well.
