Are you blinded by your “religious pedigree” and your “profound self confidence?” Do you not see how great Jesus is because of your skewed view of thinking you are great?
Do you see clearly that you need Jesus, but feel the gravity of your sin and shame and think hiding in the garden or corner in fear and depression is what you must do?
Luke 18:9-14 (ESV)
9 He also told this parable to some who trusted in themselves that they were righteous, and treated others with contempt:
10 “Two men went up into the temple to pray, one a Pharisee and the other a tax collector.
11 The Pharisee, standing by himself, prayed thus: ‘God, I thank you that I am not like other men, extortioners, unjust, adulterers, or even like this tax collector.
12 I fast twice a week; I give tithes of all that I get.’
13 But the tax collector, standing far off, would not even lift up his eyes to heaven, but beat his breast, saying, ‘God, be merciful to me, a sinner!’
14 I tell you, this man went down to his house justified, rather than the other. For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, but the one who humbles himself will be exalted.”
“If you are reading this book as someone who feels ashamed or shabby about your past, even recent past; if you are full of thoughts about those whom you have let down, and those you have cheated in some way; if crowding into your mind and obliterating your view of Jesus are all the reasons Jesus probably wouldn’t want much to do with you, then it is clear from this parable that what Jesus wants to do is to come over to you, in your secret corner of shame and sorrow. He wants to lift up your head and say ‘I know everything about you. Even though I do, if in your heart you are crying for forgiveness, then you will be justified—declared not guilty, the slate wiped clean and given a fresh start with me.’”
Peter Dickson with David Gibson in RICH: The reality of encountering Jesus, pg. 80-81